I feel bad because I hate my friends sometimes. It's not really that I hate them, but that watching them makes me feel depressed. sometimes I'll notice a mannerism or tone of voice from them that makes me feel so sad and miserable. I wish I had somebody to talk to about feeling this way, but it would hurt my friends' feelings, so I have nobody. wait listed for therapy. Parents are too stressed to deal with my shit. Sister would react so intensely, she always does. I feel like I'm all alone.