y'all, something is wrong with me. I have ADHD, I feel like every moment in life is killing me, I'm lesbian, I have an amazing girlfriend, but why do I lie and keep things from her. I'm not scared she'll tell people, I'm scared she'll leave me silently. She has told me about her dad and the cuts she has, and I'm so glad that she's brave enough to tell me, but I'm too much of a pussy to let her know the scars on my body have been happening since I was 8, she doesn't know about them at all yet and I'm scared when she does shell move away from me emotionally. I can't lose her again; we broke up in elementary school, and I never stopped loving her. I don't know what to do anymore. My parents don't know and her mom his homophobic. WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO BE SUCH A PUSSY, WHY CAN'T I TELL THE PERSON THAT I HAVE LOVED FOR SO LONG GOW I FEEL, DOES SHE ACTUALLY LOVE ME, DOES SHE WANT TO BREAK UP!!! I can' do this anymore, I do think she loves me, I don' love myself. maybe It will end, maybe..