I think this is the most appropriate category for this. My at-school friendships don't feel real. Most of the time they do, but then I remember the horrible shit I used to think and say to my ex-friend (who is a piece of shit and I was naive and stupid) about them because of a lack of judgement and, honestly? I have no idea why. In 7th grade I was at a new school w an old really really great friend of mine from our previous school. She started talking w this girl and then me too and I got really close really fast and she was a mean bitch. Like, she hates and says shit abt everybody. But I was stupid and naive and too anxious to voice my opinion. When hse made fun of someone, I agreed and laughed. Eventually I didn't bc I recognised it's wrong. I broke our friendship a year after and I've been good friends w more, bette rpeople, but people I once said shit abt. I misjudged, but I will never be able to forgive myself for even THINKING those words. I just feel like the fakest bitch.