we broke up just days ago and it feels like hell atp, The worst part of it is that we ended so healthily my friends even agree that we'll find eachother again soon. I do hope that but theres another part of be that just wants to let go because what if he doesnt come back, what if he just decides to forget about me and move on. He says that he'll come back and that he still loves me but my past trauma and my mind is telling me that he isnt. I've lived this before and i cant fucking do anyhting about how i think and its killing me inside. I shut down before letting him in my life, i didnt believe in love and i never wanted to be vulnerable anymore, but he was literally my only exception. My heart aches to the fact hes not mine anymore, that i wont be waking up at 9am seeing his goodmorning messages and i wont be falling asleep with his gn's. It hurts knowing im not his baby, and i cant call him that anymore. I miss him, i want him to come back so bad i cant do this anymore.