Im genuinely inlove with my best friend who told me she loved me 6 months ago. I was in denial about my sexuality back then but now I realize I do love her. At the same time my mental health has only deteriorated since. Im depressed, suicidal, self harming and very much lost in life. I dont know what to do about anything anymore. I get sad from her saying she can’t hang out one weekend, or acting weird with me. We’re still closer than ever but Im just so confused and tired