no matter what i do or how good i am its never good enough for my dad. the second i mess up he reminds me of every other time ive screwed up and that im such a bad kid. then literally five seconds later he gets over it and is like oh you’re a good kid you know that? like no i dont. i dont know what to think. i want a good relationship but half the time its either hes angry at me and being aggressive, or hes happy but im still hurt by things he’s said before. i feel like i cant win and i just want reassurance from him. i dont want to feel like i cant go to him because i messed up. its the worst when i overhear him complaining about me to my mom because i know thats what he truly feels and it fully contradicts what he tells me to my face
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