Fuck my fuckass bitch ass dad, I hope he rots, but I also love him so much, I love the idea of him and I miss his music tattoo knuckles. I miss his gap tooth smile, I miss his wide nose, I miss his laugh, i miss his laugh I miss his laugh I miss his laugh. Fuck I miss my dad but I hate my dad, I’ll never forgive him. I’ll never forget. He didn’t love me. But I love him. Oh I love him. I wish I could be small again. I wish he could carry me to the mall like he used to. I wish he didn’t fucking beat me. I wish he didn’t leave me. i wish he didn’t yell at me. I wish he stayed, but i used to wish he’d leave too. My thoughts aren’t polished but the only thing I can think is hatred and love and highs and lows an dfuckfuckfuck Fuck him. FUckfuckfuckfuckcfuckfuckfuckfcuckkfffukcjf