i cant even hang out with my friends because my anxiety disorder is so bad. i was diagnosed with GAD in like elementary school, and im almost out of highschool. it hasnt gotten better. im medicated, but that barely works. if i up my dose any further i become a mindless zombie, ha! my friends and girlfriend are all hanging out together right now. i didnt go because i was worried theyd leave me out. actually no i KNEW theyd leave me out. i met them this year, theyve all known eachother much longer. i doubt they do it on purpose, but i am always sidelined. its exhausting. my anxiety keeps me from doing so much in life it is genuinely exhausting to even think about living a full life with it. im so sick of it. i just want to live without feeling terrified of every possible outcome. i have nobody to talk to about it, so here i am crying infront of my computer putting it on an anonymous website. cant even talk to my girlfriend about it either, wouldnt want to bother her mid-hangout.