I know that it’s just reading for 15-20 minutes, but it’s seriously a bummer when you have to do it every day, with a bunch of other stuff weighing on you. It’s for school, I’m a youngster. I’m on my period, I’ve gotten multiple stains on my sheets and pillow and I’m obligated to read a whole set of books because my aunt cared enough to lend them. I never asked for the books. I feel so disgusting, and I’m constantly on edge but have no idea why. Gender dysphoria, frustration, guilt all pent-up and shoved in the same spot inside of me. My room is small so it’s so much harder to find the motivation to organise everything again when cleaning the sheets. I should probably just lock in. But my unease won’t fade. I’m sure of it.