I feel like none of my friends actually give a fuck about my interests. I always try to accommodate them, and reciprocate their interests all the time. Even if I have absolutely no idea what they’re talking about, or I have zero interest in truly immersing myself in their interests, I still try to hold space for them. But every time I try to verbalize what I like, every time I try and talk to people about something that interests me, I get regularly met with nothing. It’s so consistent that I’ve even taken notice of three default responses. It’s either ‘that’s cool’ and then immediately changing the topic, a noise of acknowledgement in response to the act of me speaking, or silence. Dead, uncomfortable silence, like I’ve just said something embarrassing. I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong. I just want someone to talk to. I would go out and try to engage with other people, but the times I’ve tried that in the past has resulted in horrific trauma for me. I feel so utterly lost.