I just feels like everybody secretly hates me. Like, EVERYBODY. My dad gets angry and defensive at EVERYTHING i say, my friends can't stand my guts, like fr. everytime i say anything, i get mocked. and i get it, friend banter, but i get mocked on things i don't even control. they don't even like my presence, they don't even listen to what i have to say. i fuck it up with other friends for THEIR sake. i fucked it up with everyone. everytime i talk, people look between each other, i just embarass myself. everytime i'm with a group, i feel like i'm ignored. i'm sick of it. i know i'm not a good person, i'm not charismatic or funny but every fucking interaction just proves that i'm an intolerable piece of shit. life is so painful, i literally missed half of the last trimester, i feel nauseous when i think of having to interact with people. everytime i try to be confident something just detroys it. i don't want reassurance , i just want to know if someone has been through something like it.