I’m a trans person with horrible gender dysphoria and has been thinking about suicide I mean how can I live on when ever living moment of my life is uncomfortable as shit I hate being sort of closeted I mean my family found out but they pretend it never happened and treats me as the female they will always see me as and I hate when in places that genders are separated like bathrooms I’m forced to go with the women because that’s all I’ll ever be to others despite how much I desire to be who I am on the inside right now my aunt made me go with her to a hot spring I’m not obligated to go in it I can just sit and do whatever but I hated having to go follow the women god I hate my body it has ruined my life my family so horribly I’ve attempted 3 times and got back to self harm no matter how short I cut my hair or dress in oversized clothes or try to act more manly I’ll never be the guy I want to be on the outside god damn it I hate this world