I want to kms because of my sister's condition and how it affects my family. Ever since a young age I had to live with constant fights arguments screams blood and tension because of my sisters bipolar disorder and depression bipolar and I always had to set aside my childhood for her needs and comfort. I experienced her trying to attempt many times since I was a toddler, some that my brain has blocked out and some that are vividly in the back of my mind eating away at what's left my reason to live. This year alone it's been 3 times that she has sh or attempted. twice c*t and once tried to jump off 2 story house. Those times that it happened are still there to me and I still get nervous when she's cooking or near the balcony. Thankfully much of her stress has left like school and projects and deadlines but her anger and irritation hasnt left in years. Every happy moment turns sour because I start to think about that day and how it could've been me and nobody would've batted an eye. done