The only thing I really enjoy is games. I keep losing games constantly. I’ve had potential for huge runs in poker tournaments that get cut short with a terrible card. I play board game tournaments online but no longer make it very far, and my rankings have plummeted. I don’t have anything else I really like to do, so I keep turning back to the same things and just hope that someday I’ll be good at them again, but I’m losing the enjoyment and the happiness when I felt I could compete with the people I play against. It really hurts when the only thing you really have isn’t the same as it was.