I feel like i am a burden on my friends and family. Because no matter how independent i am i still rely on them so much. So when i make a mistake or make someone upset it weighs so heavy on me. I got drunk for the first time last night and got paranoid so i texted my friend. And i feel like i made them worse by doing so. And i never want to drink again because of it. I was so reckless and stupid and i hate that i put my best friend though that shit of my anxieties. It made it all worse for them today and though i apologized i still feel like shit.