I want her to know that I agree with the breakup, but believe it couldve gone differently. Im not happy, the things that I used to do for fun, my hobbies, my passions, dont bring me joy anymore, and I want to fix that, and I want to be able to be happy in the relationship with her. All im praying, is that she knows im working on myself, and working to becoming happier for myself and for us. And if during this time she finds someone else or cuts me out completely, I fully support it, but all I ask for is communication. Im trying, and I just hope she does. I want to find my spark again, I want to feel my feels during this time and rise back up better. Im aware im not okay right now, and know I wont be for a while, but it doesnt mean I wont try. I want to draw when I can, play my games when I can, write my music when I can, and be happier again, with my friends, my family, and with my job. Ts aint easy, but it wont last forever. Im hopeful for the future, and wish to drop my burdens soon