I hate how I feel. it just feels like everyone expects so much but also nothing more from me. I feel like I'm drowning emotionally and I cant tell if my friends think I'm annoying or something since out of nowhere they've all been so critical of me. idk I just feel like nothing is really worth it anymore. I just want to lay down forever or run away. I don't want to leave fully now since I'm a minor and I don't want to freak out my mom but then again if she found that I left unfinished school work behind she'll think I just did it for sympathy and attention since thats what she accused me of when my suicide attempt failed. Everyone is just being such a hypocritical selfish asshole to me and it makes me wish my attempt worked.