They're all liars. Every single one of them. They just lie. lie. lie. I'm so sick of it. They say they're going to change, they say they're going to stay, but they never do. One of them had talked to me, and it hurt really badly. The conversation was about if I think they love me or not and I replied with "Sometimes I think you don't" and she said that she's sorry that she can't make me love her completely. That was the first time she said sorry to me. First ever sorry. Now she's yelling at my mom, the one who couldn't be there for me but wanted to be, the only one who sees through all the toxic bs. I loved her. She doesn't want change, she just likes the idea of saying she wants to change so she'll get my guard down. And it fucking worked. It worked. I hate that it worked. I hate myself so much for that.