How do you grieve for a love that didn't even exist? He was my suitor before, and now we are strangers. I'm the one who says he should stopped courting me anymore after I felt suffocated from his presence alone. He acts like my boyfriend even if he is still courting me. I'm also the one to blame cause I lowered my boundaries and tolerate his actions until I'm spent. He is a good guy, he really is. But I let him go cause he don't know how to love or treat me. He knows how to care and love, I felt it but somehow we're not getting along. We have different priorities, different perspectives, different lives, so I guess that is some of the factors. Fights over fights, misunderstanding here and there. I'm draining, I'm suffocated. He didn't want my lifestyle, he wants me to change it. I'm more outgoing than he is, I'm a party girl sometimes, loves to be out the house. He knows I'm that girl before deciding to court me. I don't want to shrink myself just to fit his "ideal girl". Then we ended