I hate feeling so unlovable all of the time. I so desperately want to be someone who another can find comfort or love in, but I always feel like I can never achieve something like that. I watch my friends and my ex get partners like it's nothing, as if it's the simplest thing to ever exist. They can just talk or act a certain way and people just like them so quickly. I wish I could have just been a likeable person, I feel like such a mentally ill loser all the time and it always makes me run to suicidal thoughts or relapse. I hate being the way I am.
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