my dad is such a fucking bum. im home with him for the summer after coming home from my first year at uni. i miss living alone. i miss him not being around. he's always been verbally and emotionally abusive, he always touches my shit, he goes into my room without asking and when im not home, he uses my car when he has his own truck, he only gives a fuck about himself. i want to explore with rage but its just coming out as tears because i genuinely fucking hate living here. i spoke with a therapist recently and she reccomended an escape plan in case things got bad but i feel like its overdramatic bc i should be fine. but i genuinely am suffering from so so so much stress just being home, ive been getting sick, feeling physically and mentally ill, its all too much. i hate this house, i hate this family, i hate my dad. i feel helpless and jealous of people with loving fathers or people who can live alone. i want to explore with rage. instead, im paralyzed. i cant even fight with him. FUCK