Im so confused, I've always had an issue with my memory but can't go to doctors to figure out what's wrong because I have no insurance or money. I even forgot my emotional pain so I forgive easily. I know I'm living day by day but certain things just fade from my memory in a couple hours to days. It's really hard to grow up when I feel like I'm still have the same mind as I've had as a child. Habits are super hard to break because I forgot why I was even trying to break them. I've been emotionally abused my whole life by different people because of this issue. Im depressed to the point of suicide but I don't don't have the build up to that emotion enough to do it. Im stuck living in a weird limbo. I don't know if I feel love , I know I felt it at some point but I can't get it back.