im autistic and there's just so much to process all the time. it feels so unfair sometimes how others can so easily process all the information there is in day to day life. the noise, the visual clutter, the lights, just the constant overwhelm of stimulus and information all day long. every conversation that i have, i have to process it later. my mind is always filtering through all these things like a shitty buggy old computer that can't process any of it very well. and its taking a toll on me. and heating me up and making my fan run on overdrive constantly. like it just takes so much just to get through daily life, let alone any extra stressors or big events. things so small just take up so much of my mental and physical energy every single day and it builds and builds. and builds. and then i burn out or shut down or meltdown. and its so fucking hard.