I have exceeded my limit to vent. I feel bad about it. I always over do it. And ik people get tired of it. Hearing about it. And hearing about me say the same problems to them. But i feel like no connection to anyone anymore. My friendship feels to be like its falling apart. Or not as close as it use to be. Its all my fault. Why am I like this. I mean I'm glad that he told me before I vented that he wasn't in the mood to care. But I was still a bit disheartened. But I'm not gonna over react to him yk. Like yeah it hurts and I'm probably gonna beat myself up about it. But its not necessarily his fault. I just wish I didn't over do it. I over did it with my ex and I feel like I over do it with everyone else now. Why am I so emotional? Like thinking of how i feel so much? Why do I stop dead at the question "how are you doing?" Why do I always have to find an issue with something? I hate myself. Maybe all I am is really my depression. Why can't i be normal