This world is so sick, and I can't help but catch its disease. I feel like every single interaction I have with everything and everyone is completely tainted by all of the history behind us. I can't keep up with my studies because every single neuron in my brain tells me that things will be worse with time. I can't keep up with relationships because I genuinely don't have high hopes and dreams remaining. The only shelter I have is to think that maybe, during my remaining lifespan, things won't be too bad. I just want to be around people who see the state of the world around us and don't actively make things worse for everyone. Someone who doesn't take anything from others, only what they offer. Someone with the decency to at least consider how their actions and decisions affect others. Or at the very least someone who applies those things to me.