i’m sad and feel like a dirty ugly person and afraid and insecure that maybe no one in this world wants me. i hate that im still seeking male validation after like a decade. i hate guys!!!! WHY DO THEY MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY!!! i know there are genuinely nice guys but i hate when an attractive guy sees me in embarrassing moments like me being forced into joining a fucking sack race today and fucking falling and OMG THE SCHOOL COMMITTEE FILMED IT AND SHOWED IT IN A VIDEO SHOWCASE AT THE END OF THE EVENT. UGH I JS KNOW THEY POSTED T ON FB UGHHHH 😭 Now every hot student and teacher in the school and world can find it… i’m so careful about my digital footprint but THESE people just had to fuck it up 😡😭 I hate that this crap is a thing in my country. I HATE IT HERE im so scared people are gonna look at me after this and think of that video when they see me. i hate this 😭 I HATE SEEKING MALE VALIDATION BC OF MY STUPID DAD NOT LOVING ME NOW I THINK IM UNWORTHY AND UGLY