today was overstimulating as fuck. as a highly sensitive person dealing with social anxiety since high school, i feel like i didn’t do well enough. i feel like a complete ugly dirty mess rn and broke my really good week streak. my room is a mess and i hate how dirty it is rn and i wanna clean it and give myself peace of mind but im SO TIRED. i’ve been up since 5am and got home after 10pm. im fucking exhausted nd hungry but i don’t have dinner. i hate required school events. i hate it more when they’re in hot gymnasiums and i can smell peoples stinky ass body odor every minute. i hate sweating. i hate people following me with cameras and putting my ugly angles on a fucking video showcase at the end of the event. WHAT HAPPENED TO PRIVACY? AM I A TOKEN FOR UR STUPID AMUSEMENT? I HATE THE DEPARTMENT’S STUPID STUDENT COMMITTEE OF OF UPPITY STINKY AND IMMATURE LOSERS. i’m just so tired. i need a one month break. but no, we still have an event in 7 days. i don’t know how im gonna survive