Rant #33172

I often think about my funeral. I wonder who’d come, who’d cry, who’d laugh and who’d be relieved that I’m dead. I think I’m scared that my predictions would be right. I think a lot about how people see me. I’m selfish for doing that huh. I don’t know how to shut off my brain. Thinking about my funeral kinda helps. I won’t have expectations, I won’t have tasks, I won’t have to disappoint anyone or the pressure to be there. I feel everything and I wish I feel nothing.