My mom wants a divorce, at least I think. It’s been going on for months now and she’s always grumpy and irritated except for when she’s drunk, which is usually right after I get home from school. Sometimes when she’s not drunk I hear her mumbles from my room about “disrespectful family” and how she wants to get a divorce. It’s hard because I know my dad is an asshole, but I still love him. I feel guilty for every action I do and have started smoking in secret because of all the stress it causes me. I usually sneak out into the living room in the middle of the night and grab some cannabis from the drawer of my dad’s desk where he rolls cigarettes and keeps his edibles.