I have nobody. I have all of these friends and family who loves me, but nobody likes me. It's so lonely. No one understands you, and you just have to pick yourself up when you're at your lowest cause no one's going to fucking do it for you. I love the people in my life, I really do, and I would die and fight for them and sit with them in their silence. but i dont think they'd do that for me. I geniunely think they all have this expectation of me that I just have to conform to, a box to squeeze myself into. I love the people in my life, but sometimes I wish I could just run away and never talk to any of them again.