It feels like my boyfriend isn't and has ever been sexually attracted to me no matter what I try or say or ask he never seems "in" to it or into me and it makes me feel so so ugly and worthless and undesired. We've been dating for 4 years and he'll leave my sexts on read and just not respond until I double-text again. He's always distracted always unfocused always doing something else he never has the time or headspace for me. I feel like a burden on his life and the things he actually wants to do. I dont think he's attracted to my body or loves me it's just convenient for him to date me because Im patient and helpful and clean up after his messes all the time. I'm just his maid. I dont mean anything to him and I feel stuck because I have no money and am relying on him for support. And even if I got a job I've never been able to work fulltime so I'm just stuck with someone who doesnt even love me never wants to fuck me and is happiest playing MtG in a pigstye with all his friends.