I hate how everything I worked for was destroyed by a matter of seconds and my own selfishness. I was doing so well keeping myself from hurting my own body yet just because I felt “too clean” and my curiosity of how it’d feel after so long, I did it again. I didn't even have a bad day today but I ruined it for myself. And now the cycle of me feeling horrible has to start all over again. I’m so freaking stupid. I was so close to feeling better again. I’m sorry