i love my family so much but my mum always seems to be annoyed with me just slightly like i know she loves me and everything but ive felt so worthless and useless. not to mention in going through a friendship breakup and ive been so angry and mean. most nights i cry myself to sleep because of my thoughts and spirals. for example, if i text smth in the family gc, my mum will look at the notification and move on, but when its anyone else, shell click on it and reply. im so annoying and mean and sad and rude and worthless. im not suicidal, i love my life, its just the fact that everyone seems to be so done with me. and omg my friends. my friends are so pretty i cant compare. i feel sick thinking about it. my friend posted about her looks and how shes unhappy with them and i literally cried for like 15 minutes. i can see beauty in everyone but myself. im so weird and odd looking. i can never be happy with myself. school is horrible. i look in the reflection in the window and im nauseous