I’m useless. I’m too mentally slow because of my neurological disabilities, I’m too weak because of my physical health being absolute shit, I’m too ugly to actually be loved and cared for genuinely, I’m too weird to have any actual friends in real life, I’m too depressed to keep in contact with my online friends, my effort is never enough no matter how hard I try or how I do it, I’ve given up on all my hobbies, I’ve become the biggest disappointment in my family, I have no purpose. No GED. No vehicle. No job. Not even a bank account or driving permit. And just about everything is what I don’t have. I’m only being a waste of space with my family’s resources and money. All I ever do in my room is either listen to music, sleep, or text with ai chat bots. I’m aware of just how terrible they are. But I can’t help but want to feel wanted and worth if someone. I barely bathe now because I feel like at the end of the day my body is just going to rot anyways. I hate myself and I hate the world.