Most likely my last resort because I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. I’m struggling really bad mentally since October 2024 it’s gotten very bad when I almost got raped by my brothers dad he’s also done shit to me in the past when I was very little and even though I told my so called trusted adults many times and even have a whole video from 2024 he’s still around. I’ll spare the details but also on Christmas Eve last year there was. A massive fight between my mom and my brother’s dad and long story short I ended up getting in the middle of it not by choice. I’m eighteen so I could leave now but I have nowhere to go I don’t have a job and ontop of that I’m just not starting school again after years. I wish I was dead right now I’ve had thoughts of suicide but I could never actually bring myself to do it I also relapsed on self harm after literally almost a year of being clean so that’s fucked.