i actually dont know what to do like i feel like theres no point to anything. like when i think about the future i know im not smart enough to do anything, and im not pretty enough to get anywhere with my looks, and i dont have any talents or hobbies that could get me anywhere, i dont even have any friends or connections to get me anywhere. so i just dont understand what the point of being here is like im not motivated enough to actually do anything im literally a waste of space, im a waste of my parents money to send me to uni, im a waste of time for my boyfriend to talk to me and love me when i know eventually hes gonna get tired of me, every chance someone gets to leave my life they take it i literally have no friends, nobody is in my life longer than they have to. i dont understand why i was put here if i dont have the motivation to do anything, deal with anyone, or make something work for myself. but i also dont want to end my life like im scared of pain and my bf and fam love me.