It has been gnawing on me from time to time but a few months ago I got in trouble by my friend. It was basically about me never opening up and being to reserved. That I was an enigma of a person, they had sent a statement into a server of friends we are all in. Some of it was of recent events that I kept asking people to get me stuff (I apologize for it before this event happened). That he (the friend) couldn't let a enigma throw rocks at a glass wall since the server is run by trust. That every time he tried to talk to me I would basically shut down. I don't know why I shut down during 1 and 1 conversations at all. I don't know!!! So that event is still making me sad because I feel horrible and bad of what I did. That I lost their trust, now I am scared of the guy that was trying to get me to talk and that made that statement. Now I don't know how to get the people in the server their trust back nor how to connect with then again. I am just scared.