So like, these days we're writing exams for the end of the year. I'm very scared of failing cuz the exams are pretty hard even tho i tried to study. Tbh, i'm pretty lazy and i hate studying more than anything, but everytime i try to study, i can't focus, i'm always sleepy and i feel like i'm just wasting my time. But i'm really trying to study for real. I wake up everyday at 4 am to study but i don't think it's helping. The worst part is that my parents promised me a new phone if i get good grades, i don't think i'll get that phone anytime soon. If i genuinely fail, i'll have to go to school and sit in the class with people that are younger than me, the teachers and classmates will make fun of me (yes, people do that at my school) and i don't want to learn the same things again for a whole year. My family will be so disappointed cuz literally everyone's smart, my parents will continue comparing me with my cousins and they might even beat me if i'm unlucky. Hell, i wish i could die now