i am the first born daughter, all this time i live with both of my parents. my relationship with my mother is not the best, but not bad as we still talked each day. but, idk i feel like i hold such deep resentment towards her. when she was mad at me, she always use harsh language and up until these days i only realized that she only use such language when she's talking to me. maybe my brain just considered that a normal thing that happens when she's mad at me and i'm the one who's at fault, so i never really thought that it was not what happened with my siblings. for instance, when i got home because of campus organization thing, both of my parents would got very mad at me. my mother she sent me a voice message saying such hurtful things that i cried at campus. she also told me, that she didn't feel any feelings (love) towards me twice. she would make such simple situations into a full blown argument. honestly, these days i can't bring my self to interact with her like it used to be.