Fuck it, WHEN WILL IT BE MY TURN? I'm so tired of hearing "you'll find someone eventually." I DON'T WANT EVENTUALLY, I WANT IT NOW. I want someone to choose me as more than just a friend. I love being a good friend, but I WANT A BOYFRIEND TOO. I DON'T WANT ANOTHER FRIEND. I want someone to cuddle with, to make love to, to talk about everything and share the little things in life. I want someone to choose me even though I'm trans (FTM). Am I really that unattractive? Will someone ever genuinely want a trans boyfriend? I THOUGHT I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE. And then, nope. "Maybe I like this girl." THEN WHY DID YOU TREAT ME THAT WAY? The nicknames, the hearts, the cute messages... and then a TikTok saying "you're such a good friend." AND EVEN TODAY YOU STILL SEND ME HEARTS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE. I don't hate you, I'm just hurt. I WANTED TO BE MORE THAN A FRIEND. I'm so tired of waiting, of hoping, of wondering if someone will ever choose me. WHEN WILL IT BE MY TURN? PLEASE.