I can’t do this anymore, I want to dig myself underground. hide from anyone from seeing myself. no matter how much i fucking dig and shovel the surface always crumbles down onto me. I am suffocating in shame, hatred, and whatever else. I can’t tell if ikm doing the right thing anymore or just burying myself deeper and deeper into this cycle. I’m too replaceable to be anything, I’m too little to give, I’m too much to handle, I’m too idiotic to tjink of any solutions. As soon as i have something good a part of me just sabotages and give them too much of me. Why am I never enough and why am I too much at the same time? no matter how many pieces I break of myself they want more and more until I’m bones. I’m just digging a grave for myself that is never deep enough. How funny the way of stopping from people from seeing me is to bury myself under.