I've recently been remembering really traumatic situations and it's been ruining my daily life. One of my ex-friends, online, about a year or two ago would just message me one day saying the had an entire bottle of ibuprofen. They were trying to overdose, but panicked because they didn't want to go through with it. I, maybe 12 at the time, had to walk them through throwing up the medications, getting an adult and going to the hospital-which they didn't even end up doing. They just told me they vomited and moved on. Farther back, another friend, a young adult-maybe 18, would make multiple suicide attempts. They'd message and even call me while they were actively dying. Once, I believe they had stabbed themselves, and kept telling me every little detail of how it felt while I begged them not to leave me. Another friend, one I didn't know all that well, did end up killing themselves. They even told me, in a non-direct way, and I didn't pick up on it. It I had, maybe they would have lived.