Rant #32734

i do really well sometimes, but i always slip back into self harm. its not even that bad, and i usually get a rush from it. but then after i feel guility about it. im pretty sure everyone knows but they wont acknowledge it, im seen as smart and independent, so i think its easier for everyone to just ignore the bandages on my arm when i relapse. i want to get better, but i dont feel like i deserve to.