I hate my family so much, I feel like I can’t talk to anybody. My older brother is too old to ever understand me and he always me dramatic in something I’m upset about and my mom acts like she cares in the moment but keeps yelling at me every day and then questions why I’m always angry with everyone. I don’t even try telling my dad because he wouldn’t do anything either way. They make me feel so ugly and suicidal. I can’t stand them anymore, I just want to kill myself to not have to deal with them. I get so angry and nobody understands which just makes me sound crazy all the time. I just feel like I wanna search for a gun and end it. If I did have one, I would’ve already did it if I’m being honest. There’s nothing left for me that is making me want to live more of my life. I feel so ugly all the time, I can’t stand myself. I think I’m the fattest person ever and I hate having some acne. And I can’t tell my friends anything because when I do, they just I need to keep going. I need help.