I have 3 friends. I'll call them, Will, Nina and Chris. I've been close with Will and Nina for nearly 4 years and Chris for 5. I talk to them everyday but recently it feels like they don't like me anymore . And I wish I could say it doesn't bother me but it does. I have nobody else but them, my family is super toxic and I genuinely rely on my friends so much for happiness and comfort. So sitting here and having to come to terms with the fact that they might not actually even want to be around me is genuinely eating me inside. Which I mean it might not even be true I'm probably over thinking it all like I usually do but it just hurts so much. Why is it so easy for everyone to not talk to me but impossible for me to not talk to them. And I'm tired of people going behind my back to talk to people who hurt me. I need new friends but I genuinely don't know how to do that, I physically can't connect with new people. I've tried. I'm on the verge of just ending it, I'm not going anywhere.