I'm tired. Mentally, physically, and somehow more. I never know if my friends are real, my best friend has been lying to me, I don't know if my crush still likes me, my friends are doing self harm, I started self harm tonight, I'm up all night and am exhausted in the morning, I have finals for school until around June 4th, I get sick a lot, I feel as if my emotions numbed and more. I want help. I NEED help. But I can't get help...