I really wanna leave this toxic friendship but it just seems impossible, and I feel like because of the way I feel I'm a horrible person, I know that they been through a lot but they make me feel a lot of dread too, I'm deeply scared of them, I'm scared of what they can or will say of me, they are really moody, almost bipolar, one day they are nice, the other they are being racist and mean, they are a chronical liar, they fight a lot, they spread rumors and I'm just, exhausted, I feel there's no escape for me left, only to suck it up l, I just want then to leave me, I'm too afraid to leave so at least I hope they end the friendship, I don't care if this involves hurting me, I just need it to end soon, I hope they leave me