im so disgusted at myself and with my mom. ever since i was a baby she's always just HATED the sonud of me crying so much, and i cant blame her. im an ugly crier. whnever i cried she got really really really angry and would always scream and yell at me, and shove whatever i was crying about in my face (im very sensitive, i cry to just about anyhting), and yell a lot lot lot, then scream at me to wash my wash or something and get out of her sight. sometimes i just cant do it, and its sometimes because i'm too overhwlmed to move, i cant process anything, my legs feel really weak, or for any other reason. but if i dont go out her sight she gets very angry at me and starts yelling and telling me im lazy and unmotivated and useless and starts throwing things and slamming things and threatening to throw away my stuff. yet shes the only person i ever feel comfortable crying to.... god im such a parasite