I swear to fucking God I wanna kill myself I have homophobic parents and I might have undiagnosed mixed adhd and I wanna test for it because its affecting me sm in my life to the point I keep failing classes and my parents also check my texts and if my dad tells my mom about my texts between my gf and get sent back to that hellhole Catholic school I will genuinely start cutting myself again and even though I say I wanna kill myself when I try to I always chicken out and I just wish I could get out of this shitty house I don't wanna keep being blamed for my parents marriage problems and called a failure or be hit again and get called a disgrace since I left my mom's womb I don't wanna keep being forced to go to church and be forced into Christianity I'm sorry that I'm a 12 yo agnostic. i'm sorry that I'm not a "happy straight Christian girl!1!!" I'm sorry that I'm stupid. I'm sorry that i'm clingy. I'm sorry I'm bi. I'm sorry I'm not the child you wanted.