honestly I don't even feel like living anymore. my grades are dropping, all the friends I have are online, I rely on online chatrooms to feel anything more, and I just don't know what I can do now. maybe this was why my mom regrets giving birth to me, I'd regret it too if I were her. maybe I'll commit one day, I'm just too cowardly to do it right now. and maybe its wrong that I want to commit even if I'm only 12. but who cares? maybe it'll take me being a grave for the people in my life to understand that I was never overreacting when I said I wasn't okay. maybe they won't even care. I wouldn't blame them if they don't care.
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